Ooh baby baby !

Hmm.. long time here.. Well a lot of things happened lately..At home, nothing special but outside.. sure is something special..Made gajar ka halwa for him some days back,that too on an unexpected day..Last night,I had a stupid argument with him.Don't know how it came around.And he is (my goodness), too much of a stubborn boy.He does not stay calm when things are firing up.Now a days I don't feel like arguing much,specially on worthless topics.But, for him its like a game.. Anyway..The night did not go too well.I woke up this morning and it was raining all day.Gave him a call at around 6:43, said I am sorry..it did not move him much and in return he said, he has to see today if he gets free to meet me.I said okay.I spent the whole day as I do normally.. sleeping,eating,listening to music..Had a hope in head that we shall meet today but the weather was disappointing me.Evening striked, still the rain did not stop.My God,such an unpredictable weather we have it here.I was hoping against hope.I also thought that this time if I see him, I won't talk much,rather listen and try to behave (lols).I gave him a msg saying he might not be able to see me..But then he called me,asked me where shall we see today.Such a stupid he is.He did not take an umbrella with him and was staying inside the office because of that.I said lets meet at Rice 'n spice.He went out with a spare umbrella and told me to meet there and so I did (after some 20 mins).
The restaurant was empty by then.Only a few people( two or three) were sitting at the corner of the room.So we sat where we always use to sit.This time together on the couch.He started talking about his hectic day, his responsibilities have increased.I was all ears,was looking in his eyes to make him feel cared.I had got all wet in the rain.Still, being with him always feels warm.I did not mention how our last night went.That was a good job which I did.Forget the bad times and start a new.It really worked.He was playing a bit with me.. with all his crazy opinions about me.I felt ok , at least he was not upset with me.I also teased him saying that his zip is open(which was not).It made him check whether it really was open ha ha! He was tired and worried about the coming schedule which is going to be tough.There was nobody but us in the room now.I massaged his head for sometime.He was so relaxed.His eyes were closed and he was whispering how it feels good just to have a touch while having a head ache.I liked how he appreciated and kept gently massaging his head and neck for some while (as long as the room was without any waiters).Then a waiter came along.He asked for the bill.I waited till the waiter went away and took up the chance to give my baby a peck.I held his cheek and gave a short and sweet kiss-y.He felt good.Then I shy ed away from him.He asked me what happened.I said nothing and smiled.Then he opened his hand to give him mine.I kept my cold hand over his.He held with his both hands and made me feel warm.I loved it so much.These are the things which makes me forget all the bad times I have.These are the ways to know, that he is the same lover as he used to be.We went out,took an auto,he sat in the middle and was next to me.Half of my body was getting drenched in the rain.He kept his arms around me all the while.I did not feel cold at all.Seriously,rain is good.It adds to the special feeling.Oh what a day.Short but sweet...
I am in love again

Innocent infatuation

My very first crush was when I was in class 2. Its true that I did not know what was love that time..I was a baby :-) Only now I know what was that all about. There was a cute lil' boy in my class. He was fair ,had soft chubby cheeks and big eyes just like crystals. His cherry lips were always set in a pout. I always wanted to share my tiffin with him (it was the way to express my love that time haha!!) One day, I got a lucky chance to share my tiffin with him. The whole class was somewhat empty. He and I were sitting adjacent to each other. I looked at his tiffin and chuckled a bit. We both had brought breads in our tiffins. The only difference was that,he had bread and jam and I had bread and butter ^-^. I asked him, " Do u want to share ?.." He asked me what I have and I answered. He then asked me whether my butter was bought or home made.I paused for a while. My lil' brains gave me an idea that he might like if I say that the butter was home made ( it was actually not :-p). So I said the same thing which I thought. I waited for a good response, may be a little dimple on his face. But alas, he did not take it. Poor me, I could not even take his bread and jam in return ..' ';)

Coincidental crush..

My first eye spy with him was at CL(Career Launcher) .He was standing at a corner of the office and I was chatting with a friend. When my eyes turned towards him, my heart skipped a beat and I had a rush of adrenaline. I felt like running to him and jumping over him and …. (It is censored).I couldn't control myself from uttering “handu handu handu (handsome)….” repeatedly and loudly; fortunately my friend was there to shut me up. I had surely gone bonkers.

Second time was when I was on a rickshaw and he was walking on the road. I was surprised to see a guy like him without a bike. Out of the blue, our eyes met again. I was tickled a bit thinking "sorry dear, I can't give u a lift". Oh how I wish I could have given him the lift ! After some time at CL, he came in, I was sitting at the reception; one momentary eye lock and then I passed away!! And these never ending sequels just kept on happening.

A few days later, I was waiting for Anindita ma’am for a mock interview. I met Mona ma’am. That time i did not try to find him.I was going to attend a Gd pi at an MBA institute.I asked ma'am about my gd performance and some tips to handle the interview.She suggested me a few things and not just that, she praised about my new look and hairstyle.This got him into attention.She said good things about me to Anindita ma'am too and there I was, standing in the middle of the appraisal and blushing.

One day ,i missed a very good opportunity to meet him in person when he came to our class.Poor me :( I stood for a next chance.I went to CL to get some college details and of course,saw him again.He was sitting in the office and Mona ma'am yapping without a cause.He wasn't even interested in her.I went to the office asking mam about our next class.She hardly payed attention.I was a bit embarrassed,i asked again.She told me a wrong date.I actually knew when to come.You know why i went there?:p. Sadly,he didn't come to class again :(.But once i saw him pass from behind me. He is tall like my ex bf.He also somewhat looks like my bf,but he is any day better!

I wonder why I get these goosebumps whenever i see him and also can't understand why such coincidences keep on happening to me.Is it just so normal like a coincidence or something more? May be because i want to see more of him everyday and my dreams get lucky.

One time,i went to the washroom to comb my hair.I had my radio ear phones on.I heard some knocks on the door.I deliberately ignored thinking "I am not going to open until I am ready to go out" . When the knocking didn't stop,i quickly opened the door and what tha?...I saw him again,.. looking in an urgency :-P. I had made up my mind before that I won't pay attention to him the next time i see him. I came out ,saw him and quickly turned my eyes away before he saw me. I did a pretty good job in showing off. I mean, its not that he can be the only cute guy to look upon. I am too ;-)

More surprises?Here we go again.It was today.I didn't plan to go to CL.It was because of my friend for who i had to do some shopping and CL was near the street.I wished he was there,and lucky me.I went there to talk with the director about my college selection.The director was busy at that time so I passed the time wandering around (of course to look for him).Couldn't find him,so i sat down and started chatting with a class mate.Out of nowhere,the cute guy glanced at me from the distance.Where was he hiding? lol.He came to the director's room and stared at me at the doorway.Suddenly I felt so shy,I lowered my head down from him.Boy what a crush! Now my eyes shy out from him lol.

Sometime later I went to drink water.Looks like i had some more to see of him.He was right in front of me but with a glass door between us.I moved around the window and kept myself busy to have a lil' peek at him.Sometimes talking to Prodipto sir ,you know,to create an impression,sometimes calling on the phone and voila,..i did pretty good at this.I received two phone calls consequently.I got so busy doing all these that i forgot to drink water and the maid took the glass away from me.Awesome,..I saved some more time drinking it again(haha!!!).Wow what a day!

Lets see, I also have a class tomorrow, may be some more surprises to come.I am just looking forward to it.I don't even know his name.My friend tells me to ask him out.Ya,what a joke,i can't even open my mouth to speak to him directly.I am just living in a bubble.But a few more coincidental attacks will surely make me fall for him.

Wish i had a cute boy to love me..